"Dear Bunger"

June 18, 2010

You make me laugh; you make me cry, sometimes both in the same day. Today was one of those days.
We got in the car and headed out, this was our conversation:
Hunter: “Nana, why did Jesus put all of these trees here?”
Nana: “Well, trees make oxygen and people breathe oxygen so we need lots of trees”
Hunter: “Bunger couldn’t breathe”
Nana: “No, she got really sick and she couldn’t breathe”
Hunter: “Yea…I wish she would come back, I want her to come back because I miss her”
Nana (with tears rolling): “I want her to come back too”
Hunter: “Do you miss her too, Nana?”
Nana: “Yes, I miss her very much”
Hunter: “Dear Bunger, I wish you would come back and breathe good, I love you very much. Nana, will you make a wish with me for Bunger to come back down here?”
Nana: “Yes, Baby”

One of the most important things that we have is our relationships with our family and close friends. I don’t have to tell you that, you already know it. I am so grateful for the relationship that you had with Bunger and humbled by your determination to never forget her.
Hunter, you are incredible, you are three and a half and you definitely know what love is. As you snuggle up to me, I am forever grateful for my relationship with you. Sweet Dreams my Angel.

“Dear Bunger, we all wish you could come back and that you could breathe really well. We all love you and miss you very much!”

Yellow???

June 8, 2010

Today you made a big announcement to me...I mean BIG...huge!! The kind of announcement that shakes a foundation to it's core. The kind of announcement that raises eyebrows and causes folks to gasp! You said words that I never thought would pass over your lips! You said..."My favorite color is not pink anymore, it is yellow...I changed my mind". WHAT??? Did you say what I think you said??? Did you say that PINK is NOT your favorite color??? Did you say your favorite color is YELLOW??? Wow...I am (for a moment) speechless!

I stood there and looked at you so intensely, like a stranger, trying to find my little "lover of pink", trying to comprehend what I just heard. Trying to determine if you are just pulling my leg or if you have seriously changed your mind. So, I asked you..."Are you serious?" You looked at me, shrugged your shoulders and said "yes, I just changed my mind" and, you walked away. Walked away...just like you had said something so ordinary. I just stood there in disbelief.

For 3.5 years PINK has been our life. You wear pink, you sleep on pink, you pretend in pink, you drink out of pink cups, you color in pink and I'm pretty sure you dream in pink...PINK, PINK, PINK!! And now YELLOW??? Will our life now change from Pink to Yellow???

Will we need Yellow dresses, yellow sheets, more yellow crayons? When we pretend to capture clouds from the hammock, will yours now be yellow? Will the pretend gas you get in your pink jeep now be yellow? Will you now want all yellow cups? Will we need yellow night gowns???

Now, I know there are many shocking and unheard of things going on in our world right now like the oil that just keeps pouring into our ocean that no one can seem to fix. But, in our little ordinary, simple, day to day world, this was the most shocking of all!

Yellow now, REALLY???
Only time will tell...